11.01.03 - 4:02 pm

ok. everything is ok. i had to drop out of school because i didn't have time to get my schoolwork done because i had to work so much over the holidays. i was very behind in my work and didn't see any chance of catching up this term, because we are probably going to move in february.

sometimes i feel very sad and trapped by money and the need for it, is all. and i was freaking out because my need for money had destroyed my ability to do what i really wanted - be in school.

and i'm also confused and upset because it is looking like the split of the tribe is upon us and that is not what i want at all. but currently we can't find a way for all our budgets to work together in a way that allows us to be able to live together. and that makes me really really really sad and i don't know how to fix it.

but as soon as i withdrew from school i felt better, a weight lifted. and now i have time to take care of everything that has been slipping through the cracks. i also feel like a lazy failure sometimes too but there is nothing else i can do right now.