23.12.02 - 2:23 am

how do i end up pushing myself so hard? why am i afraid of simplicity, or, what keeps me from manifesting simplicity in this city life? is it just the sheer amount of possibility for obligation? is it that combined with the expense of living in SF and the amount of work hours required to meet that expense?

i continually try and prune but i'm always taking too much on. when my community is as large as a city of seekers like this one, it's so easy for me to want to give pieces of myself to all of them. in the form of social obligations, astrology readings, help with websites, volunteering to throw parties. and then i'm still trying to juggle the threads of the friends from afar.. to send emails, gifts, to give people the love and energy the deserve.

how can you say no to love?? that's the question.