07.12.02 - 1:34 am

the other night i realized i would have very little problem with exchanging oral sex for tattoo work. i mean, obviously it would have to be a very good artist and he/she would have to be someone i liked as a person, but that would be true whether i paid with money or sex.

i know there must be something morally corrupt about me feeling totally ok with the idea of exchanging sexual favors for tattoo work. right? i'm really wracking my brain and searching my emotional system for the repulsion or resistance i'm supposed to feel about such a situation, and it's just not there.

it's entirely theoretical, though, which probably makes it easier to think about. i wouldn't actually create an arrangement like that for myself, mostly because it would probably bother peter, and because it's just not the type of thing i'd work hard to manifest. it was a pretty weird thing to realize about myself though. maybe in a nearby parallel universe i have a full back piece and sore jaw.