18.11.02 - 1:11 am

someone found my journal today searching on how to get beautiful waves in the morning.

someone else wrote something about how i've turned into a new age wingnut. i told eve that. she said IT'S NOT THAT YOU'RE A WINGNUT, IT'S THAT SHIT'S GOING DOWN AND IT'S TIME TO ALIGN YOURSELF WITH THE PROPER FORCES IN THE UNIVERSE!!!

today we ate soup and watched dogs outside harvest, then climbed to the top of corona heights and then eve called as we were looking out toward the roof of our building. i said "where are you?" she said "i'm on the roof!" but we couldn't see her.

i wrote a letter of recommendation for alana, very last minute style. i have never written a letter of recommendation before. i hope it was ok. lately i have been feeling like i've given out a lot of love and a lot of favors and praise and just opened myself wide open a lot, and i guess... well i guess i'm hoping some of the love comes back to me.

i went to dinner over at leah's and scored a crazy domini dress and got to hug s5 which felt good. i also had random people bring their astrological charts to me which was really fun.

i tried to take some pictures of the light the moon was making on the window. i did that after nathan appeared in the doorway of the dark living room and crooked his finger at me and something about how he did that made me know that whatever it was should not be questioned, i should just go. so i went and the moon was making beautiful frightening formations on the window, because of the screen and the frosted glass.

and, it is time to sleep. i don't know exactly what to say about what's really fully deeply going on in my heart and head right now. i hope i can articulate more soon - but i feel a rather silent phase coming. filled with action, and not much exposition.