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19.09.02 - 1:24 am
*@le* i'm feeling really sad today*@le* it's rare that i feel this distinctly sad
*chocopa* why sad?
*@le* honestly?
*@le* it might sound irritating
*@le* i don't like being this sad because it feels so female
*@le* i am sad because my lack of access to (person) has made me feel the pain of all the lovers i do not have access to in this world. it's like a universal sadness for the separation of lovers everywhere, potential lovers, former lovers who can no longer touch. it's a sadness about the structures of time and space and human emotion, and how they keep us from being with all of our people all the time, in pure beauty, as it should be
*@le* i guess, as far as things to feel completely desolately sad about, this one is pretty good.
*chocopa* you said it
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beauty. full moon in pisces, trine my jupiter, during mercury retrograde. every motion of my body seems to connect me to the oversoul. if you need to send me a telepathic message, now is the time. i am raw, i may not even have skin, i may just be light.
i can see the future, and in it, i'm listening to krishna das and missing omega. i would like to decide to return next year, but i don't know what that would mean. i think i will decide it anyway. i want to have summers, always.
i would like a hug. i would like to see person, and just communicate through a hug.
(linky tradie: darkness.cairine.org, eatshit, joanna, joeaverage, jim, drew, suicidegirls.com, oof, bobby, chaya, swinney.org, trouble, xep, coleen, joyrider, stoo, domini, zum online, qq, others later)